My anxiety is through the roof and I don’t have anyone to help me calm down. I wish I could just fall asleep already.
I smack their ass like a god Damn car crash
Sunday, Patrick and I slammed some shrooms and hung out on the train tracks and smoked until the shrooms took over x)
Pictures from my little solo smoke sesh out on the train tracks a few mins ago x)
sleep paralysis - a phenomenon in which people, either when falling asleep or wakening, temporarily experience an inability to move. More formally, it is a transition state between wakefulness and rest characterised by complete muscle atonia (muscle weakness). It can occur at sleep onset or upon awakening, and it is often associated with terrifying visions (e.g. an intruder in the room), to which one is unable to react due to paralysis. Sleep paralysis has been linked to disorders such as narcolepsy, migraines, anxiety disorders, and obstructive sleep apnea; however, it can also occur in isolation. When linked to another disorder, sleep paralysis commonly occurs in association with the neuromuscular disorder narcolepsy.
Some features of sleep paralysis:
- Eye movements are typically preserved. It more often occurs while sleeping on one’s back.
- Visual and auditory hallucinations often occur and may include a sense of an evil presence, of being touched, or hearing voices or noises in the room.
- Occasionally faces or people may be seen at the bedside.
- A sense of breathlessness (or chest pressure, even someone standing on one’s chest) may exist.
It is common and may be experienced by 20% to 60% of people, depending on the population examined. In a study of college students, 21% were found to have had at least one episode of sleep paralysis, but only 4% had 5 or more episodes. It is believed to be precipitated by sleep deprivation, stress, and sleep schedule disruption. In experiments, it has been shown to occur with disruption of rapid eye movement (REM), or dream sleep.
Etymology: German Schlaf, “sleep” + Lähmung “paralysis” (from lähmen, “paralysis” and ung, suffix forming nouns from verbs).
This has been happening to me my whole life but even more so lately but I’ve been turning it into astral projection and HOLY SHIT the fleeting moments of sanity I once held dear in my daily life no longer seem significant in comparison. What a strange existence this is indeed. There is so much to learn, and I am both blessed and cursed with perpetual curiosity.
Do any of my other followers experience this? I would love to hear your stories.
I’m all kinds of tired of it
Why does suicide sound so right even for just a moment?